[If it wasn't him how different would this be? She'd slap him, most likely. Right in that handsome face of his. There are many variables that prevent that from happening. One being that she never wants to have a reason to raise a hand against him. Another being that he is... well. He's him. The heart complicates all matters, perhaps none so more than these types.
What if she took just some moments... for them both?
No. That's a terrible idea. Because she'll want more. More than she can rightfully expect of him. The only thing it'll do is make her berate herself for it later. She's already doing that in the present, isn't she? They've gotten here because of her. What's a little more inward kicking.
He draws her closer to him almost effortlessly. He presses upon her another kiss, threatening her heart to racing. She doesn't linger nearly as long the second time around, though his words settle between her ears, competing with the deafening thump of her pulse.]
This isn't a good idea. [She does manage to say.] I... I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I don't want to mislead you. [If she gives in at all, he may think he's changed her mind. She can't let him think that. It's all a terrible idea in retrospect.]
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What if she took just some moments... for them both?
No. That's a terrible idea. Because she'll want more. More than she can rightfully expect of him. The only thing it'll do is make her berate herself for it later. She's already doing that in the present, isn't she? They've gotten here because of her. What's a little more inward kicking.
He draws her closer to him almost effortlessly. He presses upon her another kiss, threatening her heart to racing. She doesn't linger nearly as long the second time around, though his words settle between her ears, competing with the deafening thump of her pulse.]
This isn't a good idea. [She does manage to say.] I... I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I don't want to mislead you. [If she gives in at all, he may think he's changed her mind. She can't let him think that. It's all a terrible idea in retrospect.]